My young mind being exposed to something as harmful as this type of abuse caused me to become addicted to pornography. So innocent, so precious… “Ghosts crowd the young child’s fragile, eggshell mind.” (from “Peace Frog,” by The Doors, 1970) Many adults aren’t even ready to handle sex, so we can imagine how much MORE damaging this is on a child’s spirit.

Studies show when a child’s mind is invaded with something as ugly as sexual abuse, it can cause a great amount of emotional damage. Every time I share the story, at least one person comes up to me afterward and admits the same thing happened to them, but they never told anyone. So what does this have to do with the death of a porn star? Well, gimme a minute and I’ll show ya.Īs much as I’d love to keep my little secret, I am compelled by full disclosure, if only because it seems to be way more common than most think. When I share my testimony with audiences, part of my story is the fact that, when I was in kindergarten, I was sexually abused by an older boy.

(newly revised by author, 09/02/21) “Those porn stars you’re watching? Many of them are dead.”